On May 29, I was called to the Justice Department for an event no reporter in Washington D.C. saw coming: Special Counsel Robert Mueller was making his first public statement after two years of investigating President Trump’s campaign and its ties to Russia.
I rushed down to 10th St and Pennsylvania Ave NW, ready to carry live coverage for MSNBC. I was familiar with the story, having covered every detail of the investigation and its conclusions from that very corner. But something was different this day: I was seven weeks pregnant.
With this being my first child, I didn’t quite know my limits. I was used to working all day without a break and never gave a second thought of what I put in my body. Hydration was an afterthought.
That morning, I figured a popsicle and a piece of blueberry bread on my way out the door would suffice. But the throws of morning sickness were just starting to set in. And as we started our second hour of coverage, I started eyeing flower pots as potential targets in case I needed to make a run for it.
MSNBC’s Julia Ainsley recalls pregnancy sickness while on air from Know Your Value on Vimeo.
Our coverage on MSNBC that day was full of guests and experts sharing their take on Mueller’s remarks. At one point, I hadn’t spoken on air in 30 minutes and thought I was no longer in the frame. I was wrong.
When I could not wait a moment longer, I motioned (I thought just to the control room!) and whispered “I’m gonna be sick!” Little did I know, I had a national audience. I took off my ear piece, and ran down the sidewalk, losing my terrible breakfast in the bushes just out of shot of the cameras.
Mika announces Julia Ainsley pregnant on MJ from Know Your Value on Vimeo.
Mortified, but physically relieved, I walked back to the camera and checked my phone. I had texts from editors, friends and family all asking if I was OK. At this point, only my husband and my doctor knew about the pregnancy, so I just told them all I was dehydrated. But one text cut to the point: “OMG Are you pregnant?” It was from “Morning Joe” co-host Mika Brzezinski. In that most vulnerable of moments I needed a friend, mentor and someone I could confide in.
I texted back “yes, but don’t tell!” Mika instantly poured on excitement and reassuring words. She eased my worry about having a moment of weakness on air. And she has kept in touch, asking how I’m feeling as I’ve progressed through the pregnancy.
A major concern of mine was (and frankly, still is) not being able to travel south of the border while pregnant. I cover immigration, so this is an imperative part of getting close to the story. But the lingering threat of Zika (which has been downgraded, but still concerns me), the long days in the heat and the risk of getting sick from drinking water all combined to outweigh the benefits of traveling to Central America. I’m already having to make decisions between what is best for my child and what advances my career, something I know I’ll have to do for the years to come. So many women at NBC, including my colleague Courtney Kube who covers the Pentagon and travels often, have reassured me that I’ve made the right decision. I also have a fantastic bag of TV friendly maternity clothes passed down from Yasmin Vossoughian, Katy Tur and Kasie Hunt. Already this journey has taught me to put aside my pride, place my health first and lean on supportive colleagues. The cliche “it takes a village” really is true and it starts much earlier than I thought! Even at seven weeks! Julia E. Ainsley is an NBC News correspondent who covers national security and justice.
Julia Ainsley
I am NBC News’ Senior Homeland Security Correspondent covering all activities of the U.S. Department of Homeland Security. My coverage areas include immigration enforcement, counterterrorism, the Secret Service and drug trafficking across U.S borders.
Experience
Prior to joining NBC News, I was a reporter for Reuters, covering financial markets, the White House and finally the Departments of Justice and Homeland Security. At Reuters, I was the first to break news on the first Trump travel ban and the separation of immigrant families at the U.S.-Mexico border. At NBC News, I have worked with a team of reporters and producers to uncover conditions for immigrant minors working in U.S. slaughterhouses, immigrants on the U.S. terror watchlist mistakenly released by Border Patrol under the Biden administration, and plans for the Trump administration to ramp up deportation operations.
I attended Davidson College for my undergraduate education and Northwestern University for my master’s in journalism.
Awards
The Hillman Prize for Journalism, the National Press Foundation’s award for Economic Justice Journalism, the National Association of Hispanic Journalists Elaine Rivera Civil Rights and Social Justice Award, and the New York Press Club Documentary Award. Recommended
